Look at me, Cabron! Look into my eyes, you stoopid. Your destiny begins tomorrow and for every excuse you give me I want you to remember one thing...  Cago en tu leche ese. Get off your lazy culo and lose weight! Voy a matarte puta. 

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"I think people use the word 'bitch' because I'm a strong, assertive woman, and they don't know what else to call me. If I wasn't a woman, I don't think people would call me a bitch. I think it's a shame that when there is a woman that is strong and doesn't mind speaking her mind there is no other word that can be used except for 'bitch.' But I do own it because I have my own definition of what a bitch is. It's brave, intelligent, talented, creative, and honest. And I am all those things, so I guess I am a bitch."

-- Tabatha Coffey --

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."

Woke up Late today...

Woke up around 7 AM, which is pretty late for my household. But I didn't go to bed until after 11 PM, so I fugure my body just needed the rest. I don't think I get enough sleep, honestly. Falling asleep is difficult most nights and staying asleep is impossible because I am such a light sleeper. The slightest movement or noise will wake me right up and then it takes forever to go back to sleep. Kowe has been sleeping through the night without accidents which is wonderful because I am out of doggie shampoo! He was born last December, so this is his official first snow experience and he is definitely freaked out! Today is a light active day and I am excited to go see my honey coach basketball because I get to debut my new hair style. Today is going to be a good day...

Here's how this works...

My morning began at 3:45 AM...

The tentative plan is to workout twice a day for 20 minutes with two weeks of beginners exercises and preparing my body for the 90 day overhaul. I am following a strict but not restrictive gluten free diet and Smooth Move Tea in the evenings to keep everything moving in the right direction, no pun intended. By following a plan like this that allows me to eat 5-6 meals a day, exercises that take no more than 20 minutes and meditation time I feel confident that I will be able to stick with this... 

You might be wondering who is Kowe? I know, I know. He is my 15 month old long haired chihuahua Kowe Supastar Poot Ninja Payne. I originally wanted a yorkie but the moment I saw this hazel-eyed sweetie I fell in lurve, ya'll. I never had animals growing up so I was determined to have as many as possible as an adult. I had no idea dogs are like children. I should know, I spent ten years as a preschool teacher. Kowe is a bubbling bundle of joy, fearless and playful. I do believe he has no idea that he is only 5 pounds because he will give any dog or human the business if they don't show paperwork at the door. Kowe is pure, unadulterated love and my sidekick!

Accountability

Just like every other year, New Year's came and went and so did sticking to my resolution to start working out 6 days a week. At my heaviest, back in 2005, I weighed over 250 lbs at 5'7". Walking up and down stairs winded me and I would hide food from myself only to eat it in the middle of the night and than feel guilty. I joined the local YMCA and got down to 180 before falling back into bad habits and lame excuses. So, I started working out on Fat Tuesday, ironically, and pulled a hamstring and was out of commission for a week. I didn't warm up or cool down and did a 40 minute workout like I just knew what I was doing, honey! Than my excuse turned into, "Well I'll start on the first, that sounds better". Than it was, "Healthy food costs too much in this economy!" as I pull into Chipotle and order two burrito bowls.

I suppose a lot of it is excuses and no motivation. I have a wonderful man in my life who loves me big or small. Being comfortable is one thing, eating like a wildebeest is another. By making a decision to keep this blog going and document my progress and setbacks, I think this is the first step in the right direction.

Let's meet and Greet

I was born in Indiana, but moved to Ohio when my mother remarried. I hated it. Since I've been here long enough to claim it as home, I guess it's okay. I grew up with two older sisters and a little brother, no pets and more rules than a little bit. So of course I went through a rebellious, wild and crazy phase. Who knew it would last ten years! I went through bad relationships, wack friendships, cracktastic employers and finding my father. I am in a wonderful and patient relationship with a guy who loves me with hot morning breath and no bra, honey! I almost lost him, and that was the wake up call. I didn't take care of myself, my business or my soul waiting for everyone else to do it for me and blaming them for my life not turning out the way I planned. So here I am, enjoying my last year being in my twenties and realizing that I am exactly where I want to be to experience the next part of this journey...