This week concluded my Beginners Workouts and besides one day where I couldn't work out because of a technical difficulty ( I Wii'd instead), I did every workout. I weighed myself and I am shocked to see I gained back the weight I lost since leaving the YMCA. So now with the upcoming Summer Fit Challenge, I am more than ready to lose this weight for good! I am starting a specific diet for my health needs as well and starting a workout routine sure to bring the results I want. My goal weight is 146 lbs which is well within my healthy BMI goal.
I remeber weighing 147 and feeling like, well, this is it I'm fat. I look back now and wish to be in a size 6 jeans. I remember feeling awkward because I was 5'6" and my friends were 4'11" and 80 lbs. in school. When I was "skinny" I didn't have to workout and then when I started putting on weight, I didn't know how to lose it and the numbers kept creeping higher and higher on the scale. I feel sexy and love my curves, don't get my wrong, and have been blessed to have relationships were my partner likes me curvier, but now I'm doing this for me. I want to look and feel confident on the inside and out and not put on like I am...
 I will succeed with determination, perserverance and will power. It's going to be tough but the payoff will be well worth it. I have daily meditation time scheduled to and a walking path next to my job. Thi s going to be the best summer ever!

The Game Plan

The plan is very simple:

• I organized and color coordinated my workouts so that it would be easier to follow.
• I plan on packing, portioning and preparing my meals ahead of time.
• Starvation is not the answer, you have to raise your metabolism, cut out fat, sugars and trigger foods to really get result.
• There is no magic pill or procedure to get the perfect body.
• It takes hard work and determination.
• I don't need an expensive gym membership or useless equipment catching dust in the corner. 
• I want to look in the mirror and like what I see looking back at me.
• I am motivated and ready to get this party started!!! 

Summer Fit Challege Has Officially Begun!!!!

I can't believe it's Friday, I start a new job and I did a workout everyday this week!?!! I am beyond proud of myself so much so that I filled out my jumbo calendar all the way until August 9th. That's 6 months from now and my goal is to save $100.00 every month in a special jar for a...drum roll please...SHOPPING SPREE!!! I picked out some essential makeup and hair care items I have beeen waiting to get and put them into a Wish List:

1. MAC 32 PC BRUSH SET W/ POUCH $44.99
2. 88 MATTE PALETTE $18.95
3. 88 ULTRA SHIMMER PALETTE $19.95
4. CONTOUR & BLUSH PALETTE $18.95
5. CONCEALER PALETTE $16.95
6. BIO IONIC ONE PASS NANO CERAMIC FLAT IRON $200.00
7. CHI HEAT PROTECTANT $11.99
8. MISS JESSIE'S UNSCENTED CURLY PUDDING $22.00
9. CIBU MISO KNOTTY LEAVE-IN DETANGLER $14.00
10. JAQUA BUTTERCREAM FROSTING $22.00
11. C.O. BIGELOW LEMON SUGAR BODY SCRUB $19.50
12. KQC THERMAL SHINE SPRAY $13.99
13. URBAN DECAY PRIMER POTION XL $23.00
14. NARS TURKISH DELIGHT $24.00
15. NARS DEEP THROAT $26.00
16. MAC STUDIO FIX POWDER $26.00

By setting a goal, planning ahead, writing it down/posting it, I am holding myself accountable for the first time about my weight struggles. Although I am not the heaviest I have ever been, I am not where I want to be by far. I remember weighing over 250 lbs and getting down to 180 and giving up. The fact that I am getting married in Oct is good enough motivation, but the shopping is just for me. And since I'll be in the Best*Shape*Of*My*Life it would be the perfect opportunity to give myself a treat I have always wanted. It's no fun to shop when you don't like your body or the size your in.

Wish me luck!

I worked out today!!! I wasn't going to but I worked out on Friday, took the weekend off and actually worked out today. I feel amazing. I had a healthy lunch and dinner and I feel real proud of myself. I want to shed the weight and feel confident about my appearance again. I have covered up dealing with stress by eating and this is crunch time. Summer is right around the corner and so is the big 3-0. Now, don't get me wrong, I have a ways to go and that's why I have given myself enough time to ease into a program gradually so that by this fall I can be on a comfortable level/phase where I can maintain the weight I will have lost.

Today started out so promising... I took Kowe on a nice brisk 30 minute walk and that was supposed to be my warm up to work out, but unfortunately I got some bad/disturbing news. I completely lost it and cried, threw a fit and then called my Dad. He talked me down from the roof and we laughed. I love my Dad not just because he is my best friend, motivator and secret keeper, but because he knows when I need to just cry and vent and when I need a word of encouragement. I could give up and give in or fight through and keep going... When life gives you an obstacle don't defeat yourself before even trying to get over it. It's a new year and a new me...

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I woke up this morning not even thinking about working out until I ran across some old photos and decided that I have wasted enough time and excuse on not getting into better shape mentally and physically. If  I want to get out of this rut, I have to do it myself... My goal is to be hot in a bikini this summer. I may never be a model 0 but I can certainly be healthy and look better in my clothes.